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Why?
Why was I cursed with these size C tumors on my chest?
Why do I have this silly curve at my waist?
Why do my friends and family refer to me with ugly names like "her" and "she"?
Why is there an empty space between my legs?
Why can people tell me "You're a really ugly girl"?
Why won't people call me "A nice guy"?
Why don't my parents love me for who I am?
Why have my friends left me because I'm in the wrong body?
Why am I abused at school?
Why did that boy on my bus try to rape me?
Why don't I want sex?
Why have I never truly considered someone "Hot" or "Sexy"?
Why can I love someone without being attracted to them?
Why does no one care about me?
Why can't I trust anyone except my closest friend?
Why do my male friends say "If only you were a boy"?
Why do I hate myself?
Why must I wait seven years to change myself?
Why am I...... a girl..?

My name is Kameryn Theresa Pratt, and I am an asexual female to male transgender.
.....

Everything in this piece of work is true. All of it happened to me, and all I dare to ask is why. I know I am a boy. I have found a very small group of friends willing to accept me. My closest friens are: Ashleigh Armstrong, Julianna Harrison, Kristina Boynton, Elizabeth Miner, and Christian Hope Willis. I have to say thank you to them for staying by my side no matter what happens. Those 5 care about me more than my parents.

About abo from my bus trying to rape me, he did try to rape me. I met with him at a park and he kept grabbing my breasts and saying things like "Why don't you wanna have sex with me?! I know you're asexual, but you won't be once I'm up iside you!" Once he said "I'll make you feel like the luckiest woman on earth," I nearly ran away crying... Things like the thought of sex, being stuck as a girl, and not being able to be who I am terrify me; yet I have to live with those thoughts every day. I don't understand why I can't have just been born the boy I am inside.

EDIT: This has already gotten so much traffic, and is was only posted about 30 minutes ago. I just want you guys to know that I read every comment, and I see every fave. Thanks to those who have commented and faved this! I really appreciate it.
EDIT 2: This hasn't even been submitted for a full day, yet it already has 60 comments and 44 faves! I've been replying to as many comments as I can, and I am startled by the overwhelming support. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.
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gaaragotic13 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Dude! i know you're just expressing yourself but damn even i can tell that was art ;D but remember we are like a family here so cheer up and screw with society if they can't understand that.
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CreativeChica39 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi again, I just want to say that even though I have never gone through any of these experiences, I try to put myself in your shoes and feel your pain. When I do it's so hard to deal with, and I know that what I'm trying to emulate is nowhere near what you're feeling. So please, keep strong and people will begin to accept you, or at least tolerate you.
All the best,
Blinne ^.^
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TheMistressOfAnime Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012
I wish I could thank you better, but the English language doesn't hold the words *Is stereotypically Finnish*. :heart:
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CreativeChica39 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
S'ok! :icontighthug:
I've always wanted to learn Finnish though! I plan on becoming a translator when I grow up and my plan is to learn at least one language from every region. ^.^
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TheMistressOfAnime Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012
Finnish is very very different from English. It wasn't as difficult for me because I learned Finnish, Norwegian, and English at very young ages. It's really cool that you want to learn all those languages!
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CreativeChica39 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks! And sadly, the U.S is stupid and decided to start teaching us a second language in the 7th grade when it should start in the 2nd grade if they wants us so badly to be proficient and to catch up with the rest of the world.
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TheMistressOfAnime Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012
Yeah... Where I live, they only offer Spanish and Japanese. I really with they offered Russian so I could be fluent in it by now... (If you want to learn a language from eastern Europe, Russian's your best bet. It's accepted in Russia, Belarus, Ukraine, Kazakhstan, Turkmenistan, Latvia, Estonia, Lithuania, Romania, and Transnistria.
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CreativeChica39 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
We're offered Spanish, French, and German but the teachers are terrible and don't care at all so we don't really learn the language. They used to teach Latin but they dropped five years ago. I'd love to learn Russian though. ^.^
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TheMistressOfAnime Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012
Russian is really pretty and I have family from there that I can't communicate with so...
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misteryA555 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2012
Its like you read my mind
I feel so terrible everyday
I can never be free
Not for years from now
And all I can say is
Why?
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